a whole new Linda

I have this really gross scar on my shoulder. It's lumpy and bright red and it hurts when anything, even air touches it. I have had it since I was a kid and any time I get a cut I am sure it will turn into one of those gross scars and ruin me for life. Every time I have gone to a doctor about it or anything that involves a doctor seeing the bad scar, it always ends with the doctor saying the same thing: Well, just be really glad it's not on your face!
Every morning when I get out of the shower and see that scar I think how happy I am it is not on my face. Wouldn't a lumpy,painful, swollen red scar on your face be awful?! Whew, thank Buddha this scar is not there! So when Spider War '09 happened I didn't even let myself think for one second about the bite area turning into one of those hideous scars because this was not the time I wanted my thoughts to become a reality. I was very busy being glad the scar I did have was not on my face.  I rushed to the doctor and got help in an effort to prevent whatever I could.
That was almost a month ago. Everything to do with the bite has healed except a bright red lumpy painful spot about the size of a quarter that makes my eyelid all puffy and hurts when anything, even air touches it. It's very annoying. And, IT'S ON MY FACE.
I went to see the dermatologist and the laser specialist about this and of course because I am me the thing I did not think about became a reality anyway! I have the best luck ever! There's really not much they can do about it other than trying some topical steroid creams to stop it from getting worse and get the red out. After 6 months of trying the topical creams I can visit a plastic surgeon to see what they can do. Given my luck with doctors and referrals, I  will be starting that process now.
And, IT'S ON MY FACE.
Before I went to the doctor this morning, I told Karen if this scar is a permanent thing that I'd cry every day. She said that sounded fair. It turns out I don't really have the time to do that and I'm not really a big cry baby type. I am easily annoyed though so just get real comfy with the idea that if you thought I complained a lot about my bangs never being the right length before, you ain't seen nothing yet.
 I used to always cover up my chest so people would look at my eyes when talking to me. There will be no more of that. From now on, it's a whole new Linda! I will be covering my eyes and opening my shirt. I can't wait to see my windy days self-portraits now.

Comments

[Kathleen]

Oh I'm sure there are a few that are praying for a big wind right about now!

[QuinnCreative]

I read your story and smiled. It must be very annoying to have a spot on your face, and on your eye is even worse. I've taken a class from you and you are a hottie, sure enough. Please remember this day very carefully. Bangs. Spots. Scars.

There will come a day when you are at the dermatologist and the nurse squinches her eyes and looks as you and says, "Did you used to be pretty? You know, like a long time ago when you were young?"

And then, because you need more humbling, the dermatologist will say, "I'm not going to do anything. It's not like you are a model or anything. You're retired." And you are not retired. And you deal with a lot of people. And the doctor thinks that not even that is important for you.

[CarrieJ]

Who wants people to ALWAYS look them in the eyes anyway? listen ... $7,000 more you can have a new eyebrow!

*HUGS* I love ya anyway!

[Sandy]

My Hubby is sitting here beside me enjoying your open shirt wondering about that wind. Here's hopeing the Dr. and the cream work out.

[Kim]

ok...where have you been hiding the girls?! they seem HAPPY (almost giddy) to finally have the limelight!!!

[DesertNana]

Well, if its any comfort
I had skin cancer above my right eye and felt similar to the way you do-until I found out it was ONLY Basel cell and would not require disfiguring surgery-so relief replaced being bothered by a droopy eye lid.
I Love your newest adaptation =)
That would require another 10,000 surgery for me =)
Showcase the sisters until your eye calms down
~Hugs

[V-Grrrl at Compost Studios]

I had skin cancer when I was in my early 30s and lost part of my eyebrow in the surgery. And you know, wearing a lowcut shirt only revealed a whole lot of nothin, so then everyone could feel sorry for me for having a broken eyebrow and no boobs.

I should have milked that sympathy while I had it. Now I'm just OLD and my missing eyebrow is the least of my problems.

I'm confident that if the steroid cream doesn't work, the plastic surgeon will fix everything! Sadly, I'm also sure it will hurt like hell, cause anything to do with that part of the face does. Damn.

At least you have cleavage and an incandescent personality!

[Amanda]

Ah, you always make me smile!

Hopefully it will go away on it's own. Hopefully you won't have to go through all that bull b/c of a lame spider.

Maybe we should do the opposite of hope, you know, given your luck LOL.

[Stephanie Wright]

With that kind of cleavage nobody will even notice you have a head!
VaVaVoom!
Steph

[BellaKarma]

I'm staring at my 36DDs and feeling so inadequate.

[Maria]

Is your hubby totally loving the new you? LOL. I could never pull such a divertion of attention. Since when are people drawn to sea shells? Ha ha.

Truth is, with puffy eye or without, you are gorgeous anyway. Beauty comes from within and you radiate that already. And I know deep down, you gotta know that already.

:D

[Jane]

Have you tried Virgin Coconut Oil? You could put it on your scar and spot and you also take it 3 TBsps a day it is really good for and you in many many ways. I dont know where you would buy in there but there is a good website coconutresearchcenter.org.
Kia kaha

[Jill Geraghty-Groves]

OMG - Nice Rack girl! Dang spiderman must be shot.